the truth is, you should be more scared of doing everything right than doing something wrong. you have no control over it getting ruined. please appologize for going after bigger things. ironic right? of course you cant live in the past if your past is present. crucify us because you're still sitting where you were a year ago. thats exactly the sort of friend you should be. its sick.
so leave. dont look back. if you only knew where this road led you wouldnt second guess it so much.