sometimes i wonder if we're given moments of sanity just to set us up for the next dive. kindof like that split second lull in the ocean right before the next wave. you're right when you say that summer brings change, that its almost like a different life. maybe rationalization doesnt fix things because things are rarely ever rational. the farewell to innocence i think is code for learning how to be lonely, how to feel like a kid but realizing the whole time that its not playing anymore. i sometimes forget what saftey feels like, its been a while. the real question is though...do you know what you want out of this?
the less than healthy thing is really getting old. a popcicle sounds really good.